“I don’t know the reason why You brought me here…”

For the first ten months I was in El Salvador, I lived with my in-laws. Now before you start thinking about how much you’d LOVE to spend that much time at your in-laws, let me add, I had never met them before and we spoke two different languages! All joking aside, I really can’t complain. My mother-in-law took me under her wing instantly. Though we struggled to communicate at times, she made me feel very welcome in her home, and country. Even with her kindness, my husband by my side, and those highly anticipated, nightly calls from my own mother, I still felt very alone. There were many nights, that first year, that I would lay awake at night, thinking, praying or listening to my iPod. Most nights it was the same song, on repeat…Ginny Owens, “If You Want Me To.” I only bought the Ginny Owens album, “Without Condition”, because it was on sale at the Christian bookstore one day. In all honesty, I could not tell you the names of any of the other songs on the album. It’s certainly not one I listen to very much, with the exception of this song. “If You Want Me To”, however, feels like she was reading the story of my life as she wrote it! Every line speaks such true words about my experiences. Four years later, I still listen to this song at least once a week. Anyone who knows me, or what I’ve been through, will understand why this is a favorite!

“If You Want Me To”

The pathway is broken
And the signs are unclear
And I don’t know the reason why You brought me here
But just because You love me the way that You do
I’m gonna walk through the valley
If You want me to

Cause I’m not who I was
When I took my first step
And I’m clinging to the promise You’re not through with me yet
so if all of these trials bring me closer to you
Then I will walk through the fire
If You want me to

It may not be the way I would have chosen
When you lead me through a world that’s not my home
But You never said it would be easy
You only said I’d never go alone

So when the whole world turns against me
And I’m all by myself
And I can’t hear You answer my cries for help
I’ll remember the suffering Your love put You through
And I will go through the valley If You want me to


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